simply annoyed.

I know this may sound really bad, but I truly have no hope that I am going to get approved. I am still waiting, the first thing I did when I woke up this morning...called Aetna. Still in the "pending" status. I really don't know how much of this cruel and unusual punishment I can take. (lol) Okay, maybe this sounds like I am taking this too hard but seriously, this is all I can think of. A week from today I could be in surgery, and I can't even mentally prepare for it. I am the type of person that has to plan and prepare for things. When I go out to dinner I have to know a few days ahead of time so I can look at the menu and decide what I want. I have always been like this. Soo...if I am like that over a menu, think of how it is for me to decide of a life changing operation. Ya, that is how crazy I am. When something is out of my hands, like this insurance is, I just don't know what to do with myself. I just can't stand that there is no news...anything besides PENDING. I am so sick of PENDING. It seems like everyone that has been approved with Aetna was approved within a few days, that is why I am beginning to think I am going to be denied. There has to be something, some reason why this is taking so long. I just want to cry.